"OMG people who commit suicide are so selfish! Don't they ever think about how it'll affect me their families? I know! I'll loudly proclaim how horrible and selfish suicidally depressed people are! Surely that'll force them to see how right I am and make them listen to reason! After all, everyone knows that deep depression = "just being sad"; that means I've been depressed without killing myself, so that makes me perfectly qualified to make these judgments! Now if you'll excuse me, I'm off to heckle some "beached whales" for their own benefit so they'll be forced to lose weight! I only do it out of genuine concern for their health, of course!"
Yeah, just got done watching a video about youtubers who've died, including those who committed suicide. I always found it odd how non-depressed or non-suicidal people insist on how selfish suicide is, while seemingly only giving a shit about everyone but the actual sufferer.
another thing that bugs me is to call the suicidal cowards. like, suicide is the coward's way out. in one of my more... unstable moments, pissed off that someone called me a coward for hanging myself a few years back, i did a traditionnal hangman's noose (13 loops), and thrust it into their hands and told them:"ok, then. if it's so cowardly, you can put it around your neck, then!" the person blanched visibly at the idea. they didn't go through with it, saying it didn't prove anything. on the contrary, it takes a certain kind of determination to actively say, "i'm going to end my life. boom, thank you, i'm out." it's the biggest high-stakes decision you can make. sure, it can be lubricated by alcohol and mental illness, but that doesn't stop the gesture from being one of the gravest. it takes courage and responsibility to kill yourself, even if it's the coward's way out.
does it show i've come to peace with life and death? hell, i'm a stable suicidal. meaning i won't fly off the handle anymore and try to off myself (again) until i've lived my life. but i won't let old age or illness take me, forcing others to watch me waste away. that's too painful for others to bear. i'm reserving myself the privilege of deciding when my life is at an end. and it won't end until i deem i've seen everything.
eta: iirc, ironbite was shocked at the idea, and i'd love to hear his side of the story, since last time he didn't respond. ironbite, if you read this, can i have your opinion on the matter, please?
