Moar fucking group work... only this time I have to act as well. Fuck that shit. I have a medical fucking diagnosis of anxiety disorder on record and I'm requesting an alternate fucking assignment. I brought it up in class with the teacher, and she told me that even though I get very nervous, I perform well. Which is completely missing the point. The problem with public performance is that it sends me into rumination and depression. It's not that I lack confidence in my abilities, hate working with people, or want to get out of work. It's that I cannot control a fear that I know full well to be irrational. If I could control it, then I wouldn't be going to her in the first place and jumping through hoops to get an alternate assignment, now would I? I don't ask for this shit often and I've done public speaking in group projects in the past, but the addition of acting adds a whole new dimension of awkward for me. She better write back to me soon because I don't want to leave my assigned group members stranded halfway through the project.