I explained earlier my sexual fetish disorder but I feel like I should start a topic on it so that people understand what exactly my problem is, in case there are experts here who know of ways I can treat my fetish at least to the point that I can have vaginal sex with a wife.
My fetish disorder is a combination of two difference fetishes that are related. First of all, I am very attracted to a female’s ass which is normal among males.
That explains the next part of my fetishes which is attraction to women’s trousers especially jeans. The reason is because women’s trousers are tight and therefore have the shape of their body including their ass. I also can have attraction to a woman’s ass wearing something else, but it is mainly trousers I am attracted to.
These fetishes are normal. But what is not normal is that I am so sexually attracted to a woman’s ass in trousers, that it is the main thing that turns me on. Watching hentai videos as suggested by another user barely turned me on. While watching the videos I did manage to get a succesful errection by touching the part of my pants where my penis is, but when it got to masterbating, I had to be thinking of females asses in trousers in order to get a succesful orgasm.
This may be a result of a traumatic past of young girls wearing tight jeans trying to sit on me, as well as female pedophiles who touched me that were wearing jeans. It may be related to an extreme amount of sensitivity to texture that made me never be able to sexually think about naked women. Contact with another persons skin always seemed to bother me. It may be related with avoiding masterbating between age 13 and very recently because of my dad catching me on the act when I was 13 and yelling at me for it. Perhaps avoiding a natural way of controlling hormones caused them to get messed up.
This is a big deal because it will affect my relationship with a future wife. When I get in the sexual position on top of her, will I be able to press my penis into her vagina sexually to be able to ejaculate semen into her vagina? Or will I have to masterbate to her in jeans before sticking my penis into her vagina?
Given my symptoms, do any of you think that there any hope that I will be able to have normal vaginal sex with a wife. Or am I doomed to be celibate for the rest of my life?